Thursday, December 3, 2015

Been Missing for Long

Hai :)

Same words, same words. It's just that I don't even know what to write here anymore. I don't even have something nice to update. I'm so messed up!

In the end, I'll just write craps here and no one wants to read crap. Should organize my thoughts again. Haih. Anyway, at this rate, this might be my last post in 2015. Wow, I could really count how many posts I've been writing in 2015. Well, till we meet again, insyaAllah.

Tuesday, August 4, 2015

New Ones or Delete?

Hi, Assalamualaikum :)

I'm wondering, should I make a new blog or delete the old posts? I know, I know I barely update this blog, but idk, for the sake of moving on? Hahah, it's not like I'm gonna be here all the time because I suck at NOT writing about my personal feelings. Trust me, that behaviour has hurt many people.

I'm getting better, though. I control and suppress my feelings first before anything. Or at least, I did it in a non-direct way haha. Sarcasm much, huh?

Anyways, give me your thoughts.

Thursday, January 29, 2015

Long Forgotten

Assalamualaikum, hai! :)

Haihhh, lama dah tinggal blog ni. Nak buat camne, byk sgt social media account nak manage. Instagram lah, Facebook lah, Tumblr lah.. macam2. Currently focusing on Tumblr. Heee. :D

Tumblr tu pun actually dah lama tinggal, but I love that account, though. Sebab bila tgh broken-hearted, mesti ada update yang akan terkena kat batang hidung hahah. Makanya mampu tersenyum aje, sampil mengelap air mata. Don't get me wrong, I'm not in love with anyone. Tahukah anda, patah hati sebab kawan lebih perit dari putus cinta? Haa, gitu la maksud aku.

Diibaratkan macam ni lah. Well, I admit I'm not a good friend, because I'm usually emotionally distant. Seriously, you may tell me any thing, but I probably wouldn't know how to react. You have my attention alright, but you wouldn't get the desired reaction hahah.

So, forgive me friends. Kehkeh. It's not that I don't try to be better, but my past made me this way. Why? Well, lets not get back to the past, shall we? I'm not proud of it, AT ALL. It's not easy to change, but I'm trying to. :)

So, till we meet again. In case you miss me (I'm sure no one does) do drop by my FB account. Or Instagram. Preferably Instagram because I update it quite frequent. Toodles. XOXO.

Sunday, October 26, 2014

For The Sake of Updating

Well, hello, Assalamualaikum :)

As stated in the title, yeap, it's just for the sake of updating. Too many social networks and I can't keep up anymore. Too many passwords to remember that I have to reset every time I log in. Alzheimer much, huh?

Soooo.. I'm currently a Part 5 student a.k.a a third year student of law school. 3 more semesters, and I'm off. Whoaaa, time sure flies fast huh? I felt like it's only yesterday I entered law school hahaha.

During my semester break I went for an attachment program (required by the faculty) at Nazri Azmi Islinda. It's a law firm by the way, at Bangi. Okay, to sum up my experience, lets just say I actually felt sad to leave the office. I gained new friends there (hello Kak Azreen and Kak Izan!!!) and I learnt a LOT of things. Most memorable moment is when I get the chance to go to the court ALONE to present a case. Err.. it's mention on behalf (MOB) actually. I'm not qualified to stand before a Magistrate. So I had to ask for another lawyer's help. Thank you random lawyer! Another great thing, my pay is waaaaaay more than what is promised! Thank you Boss for the faith you gave hahaha!

So what else? I'm doing fine I guess, for third year. Well, there are times that I cried while doing an assignment due to overloaded stress and being scolded by my lecturer for asking too many questions for the assignment (yeah, like WTH?!) I'm hoping that this year, err semester, would flow smoothly, insyaALLAH. 

Till we meet again, goodbye for now.

Saturday, July 19, 2014

*Blow Dust*

Assalamualaikum :)

Whoa, come to think of it, it's been quite a while since I last update this blog. Maybe the fact that I have too many 'social networks' that I felt there's no need to update it here.

Seriously, I've got Instagram, Twitter, Facebook, Tumblr yada yada. And soon I'd be forgetting this site again haha. Sorry dear blog. It's not like anyone is keeping up with my life, anyway. Why bother?

I should close this site, but I can't. No reason, just because. Anyways, do drop by my other social networks in case you're so curious about my life. IF you are. My life's boring, I've warned you.

So, bye for now.

Friday, April 18, 2014

Controlling Speed

Hai, assalamualaikum! :)

I guess parents really have a way to control their kid's driving speed. Today I had to drive behind my dad's car and I can tell that he's only driving for 50km/j.

How I know? Well just look at my meter speed, and I can tell how fast my dad's going.  Ohh god, really?  that's waaaay too slow daddy.

Sunday, March 30, 2014

Keseronokan Law School

Hai, Assalamualaikum!

Lama betul tinggal blog ni. Almaklum sejak ada Dayre ni kan, lebih mudah nak update. HAHAHA. Okay back to story.

This might be a lil bit irony for me to speak of this, as I have no passion in law. Why I'm still here? Well, it's already my second year and I just need to survive another 2 years. No law school is no fun, really. Unless you have passion lah. But somehow I managed to find few.

1.Absurd Cases
    Main thing in law school, you'll have at least 500 cases to read in a semester. Well, that depends if you really read all those cases. As for me, NO. I'll only read the landmark cases and the ones relevant to my final questions which later explains my bad grades. The fun thing in reading cases is that, some cases are just absurd, especially in criminal law. There's more to criminal law than murder, okay. It's a wide scope. Some facts in the case are just funny and while you're reading you'll find yourself amused. Example, a provocation is not to be raised as a defence if the victim is exercising his right to private defence, thus the offender would still be liable. In a case I read, the offender claimed he was provoked by the victim, thus he is not to commit any offence. How can you claim you are protecting yourself when that person is also protecting himself? That is just ABSURD.

2. Getting Mad
     Well, I wouldn't really call this fun in law school, but somehow law school never fails to drives you mad. You can get mad at the tests, assignments, cases, tutorials and all sorts. I remembered getting so nervous and used up when I had 3 tests in a row (all required readings) and it is not a surprised I failed one of the test miserably. Expected the fail, but can't accept the fact, hahah. Getting mad is actually good because it keeps you occupied with the works and motivated to end it up as soon as possible. Where's the fun? The fun is when you finally finish all the works and satisfied with the result of your hard work.

3. Pretending You're A Lawyer
    The best part, you can pretend you're a lawyer, although you are far from qualified. You decide how you should handle the problems handed before you and crack up your head to solve. A huge amount of time is required to make the research but hey! This is an early practice before you really crack up your head. Mind you, your eyes and mind will be extremely tired from looking at the books and the computer. I literally lose my sight for 10 minutes as the after effect of looking at the computer for too long.

HAHAHA, I think this is the only fun in law school. You'll get bored and tired eventually but hey, no other course is easy. Every course has its own difficulties and it depends on you to solve it. Have fun in learning. I may hate law school, but I enjoy learning it. Okay, I hate the exams actually.

I'll have to get used to it every time.

Tuesday, March 11, 2014

*shrug away*

Hai, Assalamualaikum :)

Read this link first : Best friends?

I'm sorry I've been posting about my "best friend" so much. People get annoyed, I know. But who cares, right? It's my blog in the first place. Hehehe. Okay, get back to what I'm saying.

I have a best friend, or I THINK I have a best friend.  I take time to open up to people, seriously. No, I don't have much trouble making friends, I can easily goes up to someone and say 'hello'. Really, not a big deal, with the condition I get a good first impression of him/her. Heheh.

But as this friendship continues, I feel like there's still a part of her that I don't know. It's not like she being secretive or whatever, but I just cant get into that 'deep conversation' with her anymore. She'd think I'm weird suddenly coming up with such questions. I know, I know she's not the type to openly show her love (as opposed to me, I'm a Libran and  Libra is the zodiac of love, mind that) but I could sometimes feel that we're somehow distancing.

No doubt that I do feel jealous when she mentioned another person as a her best friend. No, I have nothing against her having another best friend, but it just hurts that she always mentioned of the new girl's name which she has just known for like 2 years? I don't want to be petty, seriously but sometimes you just cant help to feel so, right?

I do get jealous seeing people standing strong with their best friends from a long time ago and I feel like here I am, barely hanging of a thin thread, desperately trying to keep up with the friendship. I tried giving her those things they have for "BFF" but then I never see her wore the bracelet or hang the keychain I got for her. I dont wanna ask cause that'll really make me sound petty but.. urghhh. I really dont want to feel petty and desperate but her reactions makes me feel so.

What hurts the most is when I always have time for her, be it early in the morning, in the scorching hot afternoon or even late at night but she can't do the same. I'd reply to her messages right away, even if I'm quite busy at that time (except when I'm in class. I'd put my phone away). It's just saddening that I'm her go-to person in case she needed someone but she's not the one I can call my "go-to person". It's not like we're always like this, anyway. There are times when we are perfectly as other best friends, hanging out together, went shopping together and all the stuffs that best friends do, but it's always after the hangout sessions that she'd automatically distance herself from me, stop replying to my messages and answering my calls. And again, because I dont want to sound petty ah hell, I'd usually keep quiet and not mention this to her. I never get to tell this to her.

Is it really selfish of me to have someone who I can call my best friend and she would call me the same too? Is it wrong to call someone out loud as my bestie? It hurts a lot, knowing all these while they dont share the mutual feelings you have. If it's really wrong, I'm guilty as charged.

Thursday, March 6, 2014

A Post of Appreciation

Hi, Assalamulaikum :)

I take time to appreciate other people, but I never really appreciate someone who really knows me inside out. I just wanna appreciate her before it's too late.

Dear you,

Firstly, thank you for always listening to me even when I don't speak. You always know how I feel, even by the way I reply to your messages/WhatsApp. You always know when I have lost my mood for the day and you don't even mind if I let it out to you. You were always there, whenever I need you. 2 am? 4 am? You'll still answer my call even if you're already sleeping and listen to what I'm about to say even though it's irrelevant and unimportant. Not everyone can answer a phone call at 2 am unless it's important and emergency.

Not only that, you're always the one who wipes off my tears without it having the chance to flow down. You always know how to make me smile again, even if I don't feel like smiling. Talking to you makes me feel better, in every way. You make me calm although I'm already having a panic attack. Sometimes, no words are needed from you but knowing you're there for me, helps me to feel better. Now, how many people can do that to you?

Lastly, thank you for loving me, like how I love you. Yes, I know we love each other soooo much, that there's no day we don't message or call each other. You'll still make time for me, even if you're already busy cramming with your works. You don't mind giving me a hug when you know that's what I needed the most. You buy me things, and yet don't ask for anything in return. I've owe you so much, I know. Again, thank you for standing by my side always, for having faith in me when I myself were feeling down and loving me endlessly. I may say I have 'best friends' but do know you're the one who sits at the highest place in my heart (well, just for the ranking of friends.).

May our nearly 7 years relationship last forever. I love you, and you know that. Thank you, YS.

Tuesday, March 4, 2014

Part 4, Second Year

Hai, assalamualaikum!

Perghh lama sangat dah tinggal blog ni. Berhabuk, bersawang, ber tah apa lagi semua ada. Hahaha. Takde mood lah nak mengadap blog. Cuti sem pun buat apa je selain menghabiskan duit, minyak dan beras. Hahahaha.

So, hari ni dah officially masuk second year, semester 4. Sem ni sumpah nervous, takut, risau.. segala macam perasaan ada. Dah la kali ni semua subjek law except ade English and BM. Serius ahh kena belajar BM? Adoii. Tambah tak best, classmates semua bertukar. Pe hal saja la UiTM ni nak menukar2 classmates aku ni? Nak bg kenal satu batch eh? Urghh, sabar je la.

Then, tadi baru dapat tahu (yes, tadi.) jadual subjek elektif bertukar. Penat susun jadual taknak kelas petang (rela lagi aku kelas pagi dr ptg after lunch!), alih2 elektif bertukar petang khamis. What is this madness? Aduii la haiii. No, I will never, ever change my elective. Ikutkan saje la UiTM punya style. Takleh buat apa.


Cerita random awal sem pulak.

Dinner pecah perut with my Cik Embun semalam. Tak cukup whatsapp sepanjang sebulan cuti (cause we're cool liddat), jangan kata whatsapp je, siap on call selama sejam (tah merepek apa je). Nasib baik landline free. Takde la rasa bersalah sangat nak call lama2.

First day balik Shah Alam, last Sunday masing2 dah eager nak jumpa. Rindu siottt sebulan tak jumpa. Makanya bertapalah Cik Embun kat bilik sampai almost 10pm. Hahah. Dapat pau Tanjung Malim!!! Yeszzaaa feveret tuhh. Nyamnyam. :9

Tak cukup malam Ahad tu jumpa, Isnin tu siap lunch sama. HAHAHA. Tapi sebab ade orang rosakkan mood, plus xde selera nak makan kat kafe fac, malam tu terus ajak proper dinner. Boring lah makan kat DC. Nak keluar jugak. Nasib baik Cik Embun nak jugak keluar. Kalau tak termenung makan sorang2.

Sebab apa pecah perut? Makannya sikit, gelaknya macam apa. Nasib la meja sebelah tu dengar kitorang gelak terbahak2. I enjoy this type of lunch/dinner. Makan sambil gelak2. I really miss that moment bila kat sekolah dulu makan dgn kawan2 kat DM dgn riang ria suka suki. Mengah sebab gelak je, bukan sebab makan banyak. Balik kolej dah almost 10pm. Cik Embun duk luar, so dia pun kena la balik awal. Kesian penat first day class and kena cubit masa lunch (sbb  dia nganjing aku ngan Nazreen, padahal aku xde pape pun dgn mamat tu.)

Ahhh hopefully sem ni ok2 je. Taknak la stress2 walaupun start dari first day dah stress macam apa. Keep calm and finish law school. #ehh